I am totally inadequate. 

Lori does everything better than I do… she works harder, and gets more done that I can on my best days.  No matter how hard I try, I end up letting her down.  And it shows.  I can tell it bothers her.  I can tell it bothers everyone I interact with.

I cancel things I have planned because I can not trust myself to follow thru.  I am tired of feeling like a failure all the time.  This has been my life story – I have always been encouraged to feel like a failure.  Even though it is currently unintentional, it is very real.

It is relentless.