I doubt if it is really a true feeling… but I commonly wish I could hide from the world.
I know someone who was an “outsider” ~ someone who didn’t get it. But then something happened in her life to throw her violently to the other side of the fence. Suddenly she gets it all. But usually, the people who really care about us, will never understand.
It is difficult for those who have to live with us… they see the pain, but not the cause or depth. They learn to not react “normally” to our “moods”. And they try very hard.
But most people just stare in wonder. They can not imagine where we are ~ thought they often think they do. We have all heard the “snap out of it” comments… “just try harder” implications. We are treated at times as if we must just not care enough to do anything about it.
That is hard to get used to. It makes me feel more isolated. It leaves me worse off. And it leaves me wanting to hide… always.
Ramblings of an Agoraphobe 
Your not alone….we all have our secluded islands, sometimes it gives us comfort to be there and sometimes we stand on the beach wondering when a ship will come along. 🙂
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Oh, it’s a true feeling. I definitely had that feeling many, many times. Okay, I probably still do. I have to admit that it is so hard to read the blogs sometimes because, though I can’t know exactly what you are going through, I have a pretty good idea and it kind of brings back my nightmares! I really do feel for you, but at the same time I know that there is really nothing I can say that will fix, soothe or take away these feelings. You’ve got to find that on your own, and you clearly have taken steps. Unfortunately, this step is backwards, but I have seen you take forward ones too. Just know that you do have support.
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Oh, it’s a true feeling. I definitely had that feeling many, many times. Okay, I probably still do. I have to admit that it is so hard to read the blogs sometimes because, though I can’t know exactly what you are going through, I have a pretty good idea and it kind of brings back my nightmares! I really do feel for you, but at the same time I know that there is really nothing I can say that will fix, soothe or take away these feelings. You’ve got to find that on your own, and you clearly have taken steps. Unfortunately, this step is backwards, but I have seen you take forward ones too. Just know that you do have support.
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