I realized just today, that one of the big problems I have with weekends, is that it’s a race – I need to have fun, before I have depression. Once the depression starts, it’s all over.
Most times things do go bad it starts with very high anxiety. That changes your blood chemistry – it’s like that moment when your body goes into Fight or Flight mode. Except it lasts 10-30 minutes.
After that the body and mind sort of crash. And suddenly I am totally set up for depression. It does not always happen!
The nice thing about this blog is that having a better idea of what is happening, makes it easier to find a way of avoiding it!! In this case, I see I need things to start with having fun – or at lest soon after the anxiety crash. And it’s not as easy as it sounds! Everyone would rather have fun!
But I keep inching forward… learning new things that make other things fit together better. In that way, it’s just like Physics.
This actually came to me while I was commenting on a Facebook post!