A lot of people don’t like Monday’s… I don’t either.  They are often the worst day of my week.  At least in terms of anxiety, depression, and generally feeling bad about myself.  I guess that covers it.

Today I had to go take a nap this afternoon because I was getting depressed.  I did not actually sleep much, but was able to doze for about 4 hours.  I guess I feel better, but I still don’t feel “right”.

Tomorrow I have errands to run, and there is a lot of work to get done, but thinking about that now is counterproductive – it will just get me more depresses.  That makes it hard to plan things out.  I will have to figure it out in the morning, which means I have more things hanging over me.  There is no easy way out of this mood.

Most Monday’s are like this.  Some are better… sometimes I actually have a good day.  But not usually.

The weekend affects it.  If we have a busy weekend, it’s pretty much always worse.  It does not seem to matter what we do… it’s just if we do a lot.  Lori can outwork anyone, so it’s probably partly from feeling like I have been out-worked.  And when I have a bad pain day (see previous post), it all gets even worse.  I feel as if I have failed.

It’s easy for me to feel bad even when I was held back by pain, or whatever.  I know I should do better… but this is all I’ve got.  I try to do the best I can…