I have written some blogs describing my situation. And of course there is going to be more on that later, but for now it is time to ask what next?

I am getting more comfortable in my life at home. Things feel more like they should… it is hard to describe what I mean, suffice it to say it just feels more like home.

There has been improvement in ability to do things. Including writing these blogs. I am feeling like there is not as much anxiety blocking me from doing things as there was three months ago. After a couple of months on my right prescriptions I now feel ready to push myself a little more to try to get more things done. Then I think I can be successful about it.

Right now, those activities here at home are the center of my focus. I want to start having more fun. I have begun shooting 10 m air rifle, and it has a lot of the same characteristics as archery. I like the intense concentration of it. Learning and repeating the same steps over and over. It is giving me a new direction – or rather an old direction renewed – for my thoughts. It is relaxing, in that all other thoughts have to get pushed aside. You just have to concentrate on one thing.

So right there is something new that I am doing here at home.

My long-range goal from this, is to build up enough confidence to have visitors, and eventually to make it easier for me to go out. It is a very long process and has had many stops and starts along the way. But overall I think I am making some progress, even while I feel like I know less about what is going on around me.