I have spent a lot of time (don’t ask) thinking about where the boundary is… where do things fall from reality, to an unknown. At some point, my brain diverts from the Norm, and stops seeing things as they are. Where is that? Where does that happen?

In trying to find it, I am looking for some kind of Identifier… some little blip that might give me advance warning of what is ahead. I can’t imagine how such a thing could exist… how could I possible see something coming from inside? Let alone finding a tweak that could avoid it… There is a sort of built in ignorance to it.

But I look at the mechanizations of it all, and try to find a pattern. I see multidimensional structures, sometimes almost the entire house of cards. Seeing the cards is hard enough… building them up into something recognizable is ridiculously complex. Then comes finding a way to hold it there… to make it stay standing. Impervious. Indestructible. Strong enough to give me freedom, and equality to interact with the world. But alas……

My brain is constantly trying to understand how to communicate correctly with human beings. And so far, it is not going very well. J

Should I move to Elnor?