“Don’t Be Mad at Me”

That’s what Lori says… I was not mad, I was depressed.

But I am doing a lot better this morning than over the weekend.  I was trying to sleep all but about 7 hours the whole time, and did not eat.  Now I am starting to feel like I have a grip on my thoughts, and I am starting to see where to go.

Part of the problem I have been having since session last week, is that I was too focused on one outcome, and when things didn’t feel quite right, I did not know what to think.  I am not sure why it did not feel right.

Now I am thinking I am not ready to dive back into therapy.  I am not up to going thru all of that again – not after more than 8 years with the same therapist.  I need a more measured approach.  This is going to take some time to work into.

And I am alright with that!

So I am going to take this week to let things settle in my mind, and go back for a second session next week.  Then I can see how I am feeling about it all.

Slowly… take things slowly.  I am so tired of where I have been these last 6 months, that I was trying to rush myself too much.

Stick with me, and keep reading, because I will be making more progress.  Actually… I think I have made a lot of progress just by going to a new psychologist!  That is what I need to focus on.  Good things are happening.