Next week I will see a new psychologist… I am hoping this will work out, and I will be back in therapy. Of course… I have a lot of anxiety about it, and it will get worse. But this is a good chance at a new beginning.
I know it will just be the beginning of a long process – I have fallen back quite a way over the last few months. But I have the tools and knowledge to make this work. And I have the will to push myself when I need to. There will be progress.
This is also the beginning of a most difficult time of year. The Holliday’s are great, but they are also draining.
While we were in Ashland, I was around other people as much as what would normally be several months for me. It ultimately did me in. I missed the last 3 plays we were going to see. But I held together enough to enjoy our time there, and had fun. So it was a good start.
I am also trying to plan a single night trip somewhere close, just for myself. Maybe a little get-away. It will happen if it easily fits in, but this, I will not push so much on. It’s a lark.
The key now it is do more, but not too much. I am not sure I know where that line is, but I am sure I will find it!
Stick with me, it’s going to be a bumpy ride!