There is nowhere for me to go.

I am tired.  I am trying to build up some reserves.  I will have to go out this week on several errands.  And I still have a sick cat to deal with – he is okay.  He just needs some tube feeding because he is not eating enough yet.  There are many things to do…

Things will get done.  But I am a little worse each week.  There are things I need to do to start getting my life in order.  But they require a huge leap of faith.  Faith in other people… including people who have let me down in the past.  I do not have the reserves for that.

Additionally, I am trying to keep from completely breaking down mentally.  There is a daily struggle.  I am trying to stay alive.  I am trying to get out of the Pit.  But I guess that is not so important if you are not me.  Unfortunately, I do happen to be me. 

So I have to work on my problems, and not just be trying to recover from the week.  I still have a true vacation coming up.  I just want to make it thru the few days.