I try to be prepared.  When there is something really important to be ready for, I can plan it out, and usually make it happen – within reason.  That is what I did last week.

I was going to try a short shopping trip to a new place, and one I have been to many times.  It was all set for Friday.  But Wednesday I started working on preparations for something else.

My efforts went very well.  Friday I was able to calm myself enough to remain relaxed thru the day.  I cut back my plans so I could do just one thing.  Things did not work out though…

Saturday I struggled just to make it till today.  I did… I always do.  But I have fallen into depression.  There is only so much energy to get things done.  I try to figure out where it goes, but that does not always work.  It did not this week.

I do not know what to do.