I may not actually be a mountain, but when it comes to getting me motivated, I am as much so.  I do not know how to motivate myself… worse, I do not know how Lori can motivate me to do things around here.

It is a difficult situation.  It comes back to the problem that I do not know what if feels like to be “happy”.  My psychiatrist and I talked about this.  My brain is confusing what might be “happy”, with the feeling of moving into depression.  Now that is for some later Blogs.

For now, the problem is how do I teach my brain to understand what is happening?  Success – that is what I need to experience more of.  Then I think it will get easier to motivate myself.

BUT for now, nothing is working!