Monthly Archives: October 2012

New Anxiety Meds

I can tell my new meds are not as good at handling anxiety.  This trip has been very difficult – though fun!  My anxiety has been running very high.  I could not do this without Lori being here.  But they are new meds… so they need time to settle in.

This was always a possibility with the new meds though.  I have been on them for a bit over a month… they are working very well when I am home.  It will be difficult to get some of it right because I will not be going on another trip for several months.  My trips are so far apsrt I can’t really gauge anything by them.

Anyway… we are having a good time, and Lori is helping me manage my anxiety so I don’t go running out of restaraunts and such!

 

George Harrison’s Masterpiece

All Things Must Pass… the Album

Back in 1978 I bought my first stereo. And I bought a bunch of albums – yes good old vinyl albums. The first one I listened to was “All Things Must Pass” by George Harrison. I think it’s the greatest Rock album ever produced. It came out in 1970, and features not only Harrison on the guitar, but Eric Clapton, and Dave Mason (Classical Gas) as well.

Ever since then, when I move, the first album I listen to when my stereo is set up is “All Things Must Pass”. That has continued thru 7 moves. This one was no exception… even though it took me 9 months to get my stereo set up this move. Even so, it was grand! There are so many significant songs on that album.  Songs with real meaning in the World.  I think my favorite song is “Isn’t it a Pity”.

For those of you who don’t know… a wah-wah is the little lever on electric guitars that slightly changes the tension on the strings. And it makes a sort of wah-wah sound. And it’s one of my favorite songs on the album.

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What the Heck Am I Doing?

Okay… I went from ending my Blog and thinking I would go off Facebook, to having 4 Blogs, and staying on Facebook in just a couple of days.  What the Heck is that all about?

I would say “It’s simple…” but it’s not.  What I realized was that I was trying to do too much on my Blog, and I was getting frustrated with it.  It was a mish-mash of different kinds of topics.  People interested in one kind of thing were getting all sorts of stuff they didn’t care about.

So I separated my thoughts – at first I thought of 2 Blogs… then it jumped to 4.  And I discovered it’s a lot easier to write Blogs this way!  I don’t have to think about what would fit in best… or what people might be interested in most.

This is yet another example of the convoluted ways my brain can work.  Right decision, wrong path to find it.  Stay tuned.

And… My Back is Out

Fun happens at the wrong time sometimes.  My back is now out… don’t ask about where it went out too.  And I have no idea what I did to it.  But that’s the way it usually happens.

So now I can just relax, and not do anything to make it worse.  Or I can put on a Lidocaine patch to knock out the pain.  What do I do?  I would rather not use the meds if I can avoid it.

So I am going to sit in my chair and relax it away.  What should I do about dinner??

Depression Hang Overs

Since I started one of my new meds, my depression has been a lot better.  I used to get depressed for weeks at a time… now just 4 months later, they generally last less than a day.

Last week, I was depressed for a couple of days, then I worked out of it Friday morning.  But I had a depression hang over… I was right on edge, and totally drained.  Saturday morning could have gone either way.  I was feeling totally out of it.

It took my well into Saturday afternoon to finally start to feel like myself again.  Normally that does not happen.  But I think the fact that my depression was longer than normal contributed to that.  Whatever it was, it made for a difficult morning for Lori.  But everything worked out okay.

The depressions I have are not gone… but they sure are easier to get out of, and manage.  It does surprise me sometimes… like last week.  I feel better about getting thru even the worst depression, though it can leave me with a Depression Hang Over.

So… How Many Blogs do I Have?

Okay… having 4 Blogs may seem kind of crazy, but it will work best for me!  My original Blog was getting to confusing – people didn’t know what to expect.  So I am writing all my new personal Blogs on this Blog.  Though I will put a weekly update of my original Blog.

This is where I will share about my Anxieties, Depressions, Phobias, Obsessive Compulsive behaviors and what ever else comes up.  I will write it when it’s happening some time… There will be notes about how I got out of it… And there will be Blogs about my sessions with my psychologist.

I’m not sure how often I will post, but my guess is it will be pretty often!  So hang in there, and read what you want.  Please comment – I’d like to know what people think.