Daily Archives: October 19, 2012

Empty Brain…

My brain is not working very well today.  I don’t know where it is all coming from, but I feel unable to do anything.  My mood is very Fragile, and I can’t control my thoughts. 

I feel angry, and sad, and confused… I should just have stayed in bed today.  I am of no use to anyone like this.  It seems like everything has been going wrong.  My pain is not under control, and I have nothing to deal with it when it is really bad.

And I have been letting down Lori and everyone else I deal with.  My brain sometimes just gets so empty…

Not a Good Day

There are good days and bad… today is a bad day.  I had nightmares all night, but still stayed in bed late this morning.  I would rather have the nightmares than get up and have to deal with the world.

We went out to IKEA yesterday, and it wore me out.  I had lots of pain, and was not able to deal with it.  I was not doing very well last evening, and it carried over into the night, and this morning.

I know I will feel better soon… but it is not now.  There are things to do, but my toes, back, and knee don’t want to get up at all.  I can’t do much walking without having these pains, and I am still trying to figure out the best combination of meds to treat it.

It drags me down mentally, and leaves me tired, and feeling like staying in bed.  Right now I wish I had stayed there.  There is not much more to say today…